Setting sail in the winds of change

Just having a bit of a downer today, as the challenges ahead loom ever closer. What will the future hold? How will I manage on my own, with the realities of running a home?

As often happens, these dark days are also a time of reflection. I've come a long way since that day when the specialist told me "You definitely have Aspergers", and then to have no one offer any solutions. Likewise, 10 years ago, I was the only gay aspie on the Internet. Now there's dozens of us, and we interact daily over IM and email. What's more, I even know a few in my local area!

From the start, I knew that Mal's death would be the biggest life changing event so far, but I had no idea how that change would affect me. Maybe in my next round of struggles, I'll look to sharing what I learn with both other autistics and those who are trying to understand us. Somewhere in there must lie some answers that can be used to help someone after me. Again, I feel like an explorer in an uncharted ocean.

Who knows what the future brings. Whatever it brings, life is too short to waste opportunities to improve the world. Whatever it is I have to do, I'll give it my best shot...